So I continue this masquerade
Wearing this mask everyday
Trying to fool people that I'm ok
Especially when I worst
How is it I can feel like this?
Just because of one bloody chemical reaction?
It feels like we don't talk that much anymore
Maybe because I made things awkward for you that we're silent
Or maybe its just all going to my head
I know you just wanna be friends
And that I wanna be more
But if its the only way you'll stay in my life, so be it
I'd rather be friends and I fight this pain
Than if I never saw your face again
So please just tell me!
I try to let you be
To stop chasing your heart
But I'm still conflicted inside
I keep on convincing myself that this is an illusion
Yet somehow I'm convinced again that this is real
My mind and my friends tell me its not real, so why won't my heart just listen?
So each night I rassle with my thoughts
This war inside me is killing me slowly
Does anyone really understand what I'm going through?
That you won't tell me if you feel anythin