Anyways this year I plan to become much better at graphics and cooking! and hopefully if my parents love my enough they can give me an slr camera for my birthday hehe. Well peace out everyone and don't get caught.
LazyJulian Frac by ~chileboi
My struggle within Part 2So I continue this masqueradeMy struggle within Part 2 by ~chileboi
Wearing this mask everyday
Trying to fool people that I'm ok
Especially when I worst
How is it I can feel like this?
Just because of one bloody chemical reaction?
It feels like we don't talk that much anymore
Maybe because I made things awkward for you that we're silent
Or maybe its just all going to my head
I know you just wanna be friends
And that I wanna be more
But if its the only way you'll stay in my life, so be it
I'd rather be friends and I fight this pain
Than if I never saw your face again
So please just tell me!
I try to let you be
To stop chasing your heart
But I'm still conflicted in

My struggle withinAt times I feel so sick, just like puking til my stomach collapsesMy struggle within by ~chileboi
At times i just wanna cry, open up the flood gates and release the waterfall
But something inside me always seems to hold me back
How can I help how I'm feeling?
How can I help what's going inside of me?
Its my struggle within
Sometimes I just wanna end it all
Finish this pain once and for all
But then I realize how I would never, ever see her again
So the struggle resumes
Should I tell you how I really feel?
The thought passes my mind every few minutes
But in fear of your reaction I stay silent
In fear of rejection I bite my tongue
Why am I such a coward?
So in